Pathogenic moon sonnets

Pathogen Moon Sonnet.

 I didn’t want to disturb you sleeping

So I walked the dim lit decks of night

Shadow dark and  floor boards creaking 

Whilst you dream of children tucked in tight

The town below in lock down stands

Steeped in memory of street cafes

Crowds and kisses shaking hands 

Simple things  that seem now so far away

Frozen under the pathogen moon,

The inoculant bat song is sung

With an infectious isolating tune

This era now is ended. All our plans are done!

I slip back warm beside you curled.

In this cold, infected brave new world.

Pathogenic moon

I didn’t want to disturb you

So I got up and walked

 the midnight decks of the house. 

Around me 

shadows and creaking joists.

Children sleeping 

 the rise and fall of 

soft breaths

Outside 

the owls sing 

to the stars  

of  birth and death.

The town below  

rigid in lock down 

far away 

Full of ghosts 

Memories of coffee cups

Hugs and kisses 

Smiles and laughter

Dreams of simple things

Night breeze

Under the pathogen Moon

Shiver-silver  

tangled shadow-shine

in end of an era air.

Now

Everything has changed 

Our parents paradigm has gone

Nothing now will be the same   

I slip back 

curled beside you  

feel your warmth 

In this cold 

Emerging 

Viral dawn 

Make up

Make-up, mask up

hide, hidden 

those who really love  

love the faces naked,  

free unbidden 

love their smile 

un-slicked bare faced cheek 

and bare faced lies 

let us be ourselves 

not a sad Disney fantasy 

to back up male inadequacy (2014)

Agape

So the girl with flaxen hair

was never there

Nor the dark  

unrequited rose

 for whom I pined

Nor her with Italian eyes

Or that Spanish smile 

I left so long ago

it was me 

they could not see 

or  love 

I was me, my, mine, 

I did not know.

the very land seen 

From the ferry

I was far too out to sea

to understand.

adrift- 

on the horizon

Looking back to shore. 

standing there

looking at my own

Consciousnesses reflection

Weaving on my 

solitude loom 

Distraught 

Waving good bye

At train stations 

docks or airports 

I am just this 

self sustaining

feed back loop

Waiting in the rain

For the train to come again

But I  know now

She will not be on it

 I cannot make anyone feel

real for me

Not if I waited a lifetime 

by these tracks,

To gain  a pail shadow 

of the eternal sun

I am the  poet between worlds

I am shadow in the doorway

Sal and sulph

The ever seeker

The track side poet of longing 

Never knowing 

the direction 

I am going 

I am the motherless child

Always looking for a touch of

Pallas Athena’s ashen smile

Always seeking solace in her eyes

That she might

say 

she cares

With a benediction 

So much effort and at what cost? 

And in the end all I had to say was lost

But take it all,  take it  all away

I am

Sometimes 

Eros gone astray

Artemis’ eyes fixed on me,

Demanding my subjugation 

Yet Agape was my  horizon

I could not fulfil it

But in love with love

Found in finding it;

all of it a kiss

all of it exquisite .