Driven

The life you make

Is driven by your inner state 

The driving of your pain

The falling rain

The Desert sun

All you are is  will

Your will be done

On earth

Because you’re not in heaven

I raged at at this state and

took the harder way

I took resistance against myself

But these my paths I dug

were mostly wrong 

Some gave me no choice but to move on

With Some I simply had to bite the bullet and run 

Some made me weak 

others made me strong 

Some opened locked doors

All these

my egregious flaws

I saw behind the doors.

those that I cannot redress and those that leave  me floored

all those doors I feared to open, 

And all the open gates i shut 

 I self sabotaged my success 

Raged against my inner fate.

But in the end, 

as time slips fingers

and  I sit here mellowed

and alone 

Waiting by the phone

I see in these my many roads

I roamed 

That I was only ever really 

Looking for my way back home 

And home

Is always love.