Saturday, 2 April 2022

Stage

Don’t make  me leave my garden 
Don’t take me back to town
Don’t tell me of the  perfect
Gods own -
Living the dream
Party people
Up there on the stage
Let me rage!
My life may have been
drifting 
one foot at a time lifting,
Looking for a mother
 in every woman’s eyes.
Believing my own lies.

But I broke my class 
broke my chains 
Burst my jacket 
Bust my balls
Made a sacred stage 
Out of an iron cage.
Ex catholic ex chaos
 I believe as I see 
death cult priests
For whom I don’t exist.
 Yet for every sin of me
Some small part is free

I run spirit native
I was born 
Liberated
I have always felt so free
Of mind if not in body.

My world the stage 
holds no fear for me 
my imagined paradise
Mothered me

Leave me in my garden of illusion 
Don’t make me go away
I’ll fuck me up in my own way.

Friday, 4 February 2022

Ca Ching 2

You and I watched
 Tiger Bay set into the sun
Let it sink into the sea.
Have I always been here
On this evening shore 
Holding farewell hands
with you
I thought but said
God is long time dead in me 
I am not of the chosen few,
I am my own weakness
My own dim light 
my own shadow blocks my view

Looking down 
You sighed, 
All things must fall 
The bottom must drop out
The whole cannot be 
you thought but said
Ahh my dear 
My tea’s gone cold.

Reality is too short to kiss I thought
But said instead
Do you believe there is 
anything that can truly set you free?
You answered, obviously 
I live in hope and you?
I looked inside myself 
and left
sitting hopefully too.

Thursday, 3 February 2022

Ka Ching!



You and I watched 
Sitting by Tiger Bay
The sunset Christ taken down  
dragging sanctity across the city sky like
Alabaster skin in Vermillion slaughter 
Enfolded, infolded 
unfolded 
Event Horizon Golgotha 
Of the
Ever rolling now.
And if
It is not him but then 
and if it is not how 
but who and when
Then have I always been here
By this evening shore 
with you…

And if God is long time dead in me because 
I am not of the chosen few,
Then I am my own weakness
My own dim light 
my own shadow blocks my view

All things must fall 
The bottom must drop out
The whole cannot be free
The tea has gone cold
This reality is short to kiss
Then you may say
How do you know Anything?
Anything at all
I answer obviously 
I look inside myself and see

Monday, 17 January 2022

Surface

The suffix of my passion,
 the breath of
Beating pulse-
the vein of delicate red 
the ozone blue, I soak in
My beloved ocean-earth
I have looked up at the infinite
Looked in on frailty
And felt the desperation of fear
At the back of thought 
always love
the lemon silk sun 
that disperses darkness
 burns the truth out of beauty

Tuesday, 4 January 2022

Clouds

Rise at dawn
at dusk to lie 
In beds of vermillion rose
Billows of carnation clouds
Resting heart rate, each second 
Each sent
A quest of incarnation. 
 who turned away for  love
Solo souls, so far  in the mist of mountains 
All of we and us
Thinking of a better day, 
a billion miles from today.
Where only memories stray
On a swallows swooning cry
And a smile of
Rainbows
 arc the sky

Wednesday, 1 December 2021

Beautiful Things

My pain is bright 
like a knife
like a flame
It burns and it cuts
Slices from my 
Three second life of now
And now and now

I know I will create and carve 
with  it 

beautiful things

My love is an ocean 
It is pure and deep
Even for my enemies 
And rejectors 
 and retractors
I expect nothing

To love is enough
And I do love and
I am set free by love and it is me

I m stunned by my own stupidities. 
The sheer dumbness
Of us all. 
The cruelty and carelessness
of our short shot time

Humanity alone naked  in the stars
Driving around in cars 
to shop
at Tesco. 

Among the shelves
In the grey day rain

One person loving another
It’s enough, it’s enough
Its more than enough 
It is everything

Saturday, 20 November 2021

Ask me why

Dreamscapes 

And you asked me what it is I seek up in these mountains
I said I am become the landscape 
and in some pathetic fallacy,
the scent of midnight sun
The song of stars
The far flung of sky
Llys Don..
the endless soft falling
Of the leaves 
These things I am  and inner see and am no longer me
But a dream in
Frozen midnight time where
Moon in silent light shines 
Aghast into the high night.
Riding her white mare
Sliding down to kiss the cheek 
of rolling fhorizons
while far below in their homes soft snore people roll and doze and sink among puffed  cloud pillows blissfully unconscious 

I tip toe awake on the high bluff
hear the owls hunting,
her haunting night flower orange gaze.
 Far off
the orange town lights
Wink back
Flickering  neckless of 
the mountains Dreamscapes 

And you asked me what it is I seek up in these mountains
I said I am become the landscape and in some pathetic fallacy,
the scent of midnight sun
The song of stars
The far flung of sky
the endless soft falling
Of the leaves 
These things I am  and inner see and am no longer me
But a dream in
Frozen midnight time where
Moon in silent light shines 
Aghast into the high night.
Sliding down to kiss the cheek of rolling flesh horizons
while far below in their homes soft snore people roll and doze and sink among puffed  cloud pillows blissfully unconscious 


A distant dog barks
And I m aware
Tense
Sudden
In flight over the edge.
Climbing fast 
Into the night 
Before the dawn mist glides
And the slow bleaching watery light
Illumes the world and I awake again, facing it. bulk
And trace out dreaming houses and winding streets.
A distant dog barks
And I m aware
Tense
Sudden
In flight over the edge.
Climbing fast 
Into the night 
Before the dawn mist glides
And the slow bleaching watery light
Illumes the world and I search for the
Oak flower girl.

Experience once

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