Tuesday 12 March 2024

Experience once

The flower cracks 
the seed
That grows the bud 
And the smallest atomised grain blooms the maths of things 
Joy love, fear and pain 
the equation of being
The Quality of the senses .
The colour of  mind.
mind of brain 
and brain of matter
matter of thought.

And in this way the universe fulfils itself from Thought to matter to matters of thought.
To being to beginning and end.
What are the qualities of all the geometry of things?
when is matter spirit and spirit matters maths?
When does matter gather conscious to itself
And bind it in the dark 
And weld it to the heart?
Or is consciousness the primary 
Generator?
Life and consciousness and consciousness to life 
in this dance and  flow 
Of field and force
Vibrant shimmer and shiver 
Up and down the dark waters of a universal flow

I think my life is thought 
built on a billion suns
And  the seed that falls 
at my end, cracks.
Falling into the ever falling night 
Until there grows a far off light.

Tuesday 16 January 2024

Mother

Motherless children grow
In unimaginable sorrow
An eternal lonely space
A universal hollow place
That will never heal.
We are wound.
We do not know what it is we miss
But we know we miss.

Yet we thrive in art and song
In the doing and the done 
In business and changing things
We take on the world alone
And win in our loss
Our splendid isolation 
Our razor skin
Our tower of splendid absence
Our thrown of disfunction and distain
Our unnerving refusal to give in
To your world to your society 
God’s world in which
we blaze in fury!

Wednesday 6 December 2023

Ystorm

Ystorm.

In the thick pitch-howling 
Rocking the walls
Tree cracking  at the
 windows rattle
Of my edges
Comes the Presli 
Night storm screeching 
Calling my name -  like a lover.
Over Drigarn and into town
Across thicket fields and livlock hills
And cae Bach and Parc
It pushes, shoves and claws its way
To my small caravan hedge-tucked 
 it finds my far away bed!
 in the isolated cwm
Where no lights shine 
here in Tegfryn Lletty 

Ti yw'n unig ac yn unig!
It blasts my soul.
 it scorns under the floor
Under the door
Freezing to the core
And down the gutter pipes 
Accusing me in essence and being
Of not living.

Rwyf wedi dy ddarganfod di.
Ti hunan-gynffonig yw.
Ni fyddi di'n cymryd dy gadair, na gwisgo dy ddillad Derwydd!

I have said the deep spell in Baladaulyn
Dwfn Annwfn was the incandescences.
I mix the spells red and white!
I have uttered the last swnion 
Down the poison chalice of Ceridwen 
And now I’m the lone alone man
So Profoundly so.
That the  storm translates me 
penetrates me
transfigures me
 and becomes me 
Fi yw e!

Saturday 26 August 2023

Stage left

Those who have left
Stage right
And out of sight 
the Beautiful calligraphy 
Of their lives 
 Of ink on air, 
And wild fire 
And cold water. 
gentle memory  
Of earth dreams 
and half Remembered scenes 
Words and phrases 
Smiles and tears 
Inculcated into  
Regrets  
and simple Missing Speeches.
 All on stage 
And with them 
pursued stage left 
By bears

Friday 4 August 2023

God killer

These
spiritual gymnastics 
The Christ talkers do
The logistics and linguistics
The complex reasons why.
Life as an escape room
A pain puzzle
Nature red in tooth
A murder of the meek
This in sense insensitive 
Finger pointing
Holy scent incense me - with
The greatest lie
The most horrific 
Heinous bloody lie
That anybody can
 know God.
The
nothing untruth.
dungeon master
 guess me if you can!
the reason is void
For this worlds injustices 
It is just that 
Cold cruelty
I will not play
Priest man! Your spiritual torture 
The god  killer. 
You do not speak for me or to me 
Or in me.
There is no intercession 
He made a dove and killed it.
And called this love!

Thursday 6 July 2023

Bay 3

You and I watched
Tiger Bay fall into the sun
Let it sink beyond the sea 
Where the salmon rivers run.
On the granite quay we stood
Side on side.

“Have I always been here
On this evening edge 
Holding farewell hands
with you?”

I thought but said

“God is long time dead in me 
I am not of the chosen few,
I am my own weakness
My own dim light 
my own shadow blocks my view”

Looking down 
You sighed, 
having heard it all before

“All things must fall 
The bottom must drop out
The whole cannot hold!”

you thought but said

“Ahh my dear 
My tea’s gone cold.”
And poured a libation
Into the dock
Reality is too short to kiss I thought
But said instead

“Do you believe there is 
anything that can truly set you free?”

You answered, “obviously 
I live in hope and you?”

I looked inside myself 
and left the lie to bleed in ‘yes’
Right there on the stones
I left empty headed 
My ship sailed 
No salient point
No seal kissed
The bay 
Transubstantiated

Bay 2

You and I watched
Tiger Bay fall into the sun
Let it sink beyond the sea 
We witnessed the salmon tide run.

“Have I always been here
On this evening shore 
Holding farewell hands
with you?”

I thought but said

“God is long time dead in me 
I am not of the chosen few,
I am my own weakness
My own dim light 
my own shadow blocks my view”

Looking down 
You sighed, having heard it all before
“All things must fall 
The bottom must drop out
The whole cannot hold!”
you thought but said
“Ahh my dear 
My tea’s gone cold.”
And poured it into the water.
Reality is too short to kiss I thought
But said instead
“Do you believe there is 
anything that can truly set you free?”
You answered, “obviously 
I live in hope and you?”
I looked inside myself 
and left the lie to bleed in yes
Right there on the stones
I left empty headed 
No seal was kissed
The bay had faded

Experience once

The flower cracks  the seed That grows the bud  And the smallest atomised grain blooms the maths of things  Joy love, fear and pain  the equ...