Sun lemon

We run the falling air.

Slam the closing door 

And open the vacuum heart with White pure  fear. 

But I will not

Cannot

Refuse this

And Will not flinch 

And will not fall to despair 

But stare Satan out and down his gun barrel throat, until a new world comes to squeeze all his putrid filth out.

Do I dare test my faith?

Do I Lilly livered dare believe? 

to the uttermost 

Yes to the gun point

To the jagged edge.

Sideways to the high blue Sunday sky, 

another horizon, another life, 

seeps perfume from the rose garden walls of heaven, music faraway, kids playing, 

this worlds sepia lustre 

receding in the haze

Somewhere very very far away the sea-children laugh and play in the sparkling waves and leaping spray 

Inside out

Inside the chemicals congeal

Outside the delicate fibres seal

And burn out cells, exquisite solutions, that hold a distant summers minute, a promise curdles, dissolves in water.

Inside the heart sap seeps,

Weeps, broken dreams and deep Betrayals. electric protein 

Particles  synthesise memories 

secrete secret looks and gentle touches

 and tender words 

and long dead smiles.

 Poured out, diluted, distilled, 

washed  away in the morning rain.

Daze

Days spilt like wine in sand

Forgotten broken days that stain 

The earths days, sky spun skin Days 

Days held in chemical suspension 

Days draining from my complexion 

Days gone,  

split days,

 spent days days that cut me open

Days to come 

falling forevermore over the event horizon

2014 night

Mid night and the past flows in the stillness 

Silk images of the loved

In the silent house

In the breath of  the sleeping

The hall clock chimes

Canvas of my inner eye

In the other of Anwfn

A door is opening

Blink

By nothing was nothing made

That breath that broke across the dust

That turned the light in fusion on

un heard, un seen the first ignition

In all eternity

The first star 

The first  pulse

And should this little mind not care

At the enormity of it all

And say what was this half life lived in total ignorance

Of any meaning

In the blink of an eternal eye

Adminman

Spring in  the apparatchik world where administration rules

So you can talk to him and her to you, admin begats admin

File a kiss under A 

For anaesthetised and E for everyone 

We burnt our bridges to the sun

we crossed the land of our life, under this translucent sky

Us band of wide eyed fools

Carefree of destination or arrival.

Through the road works we drove mile on mile

Light splashed and flashed through the trees

Played on our skin and flickered in our eyes, in toward our hearts and still we raced, through suburban hell and city swell, through the surreal unreal of this our little time. Our sweet so bitter short lives. 

Counting the seconds like miles of office blocks and laughing , I am here you said, to tell you all, to shake you all and beg you all, to reach in and give it all away,

 I know what it is we all want to say 

To take off our snake skin suits, that we might

just once, 

with no obstruction

reach the finality 

and feel our existence 

in one totality.

Make it up

Make-up, mask up

hide, hidden

those who really love a women

 love her face naked, free

love their smile un-slicked

bare faced cheek

and bare faced lies

let women be themselves

not a sad Disney fantasy

to back up male inadequacy